on nervousness

For as long as I can remember, I've had that yucky, nervous feeling. 
As a child, it would sneak up in my tummy any time I was in a new situation.
It really rumbled my belly whenever I had to leave my Mom. 
Especially overnight.

I remember worrying about our house catching on fire after I watched an episode of Highway to Heaven.  My little five year old brain thought that if I stayed awake all night, I could prevent it from happening.  

In high school and college I got physically ill before every dance performance.  My Mom has millions of videos of me backstage and I repeat the same sentence every time-
"I'm really nervous."

These days it feels more like a sharp pain in my stomach when the phone rings at night or when we buy plane tickets. 

Mostly I worry that I'll pass my nervousness onto my kiddos.
Or that I already did.